getaway car

I CAN'T WRITE ANYMORE. I tried writing a dozen times the past few months/years and all I end up with is a crappy piece of poetry  or a paragraph one to two sentences long. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Writing is a big part of my life. I'm a writing major and I'll be the president of our writing org this coming year and I can't even write a decent story that is not about how shitty my life has been. I used to write stuff. UGH. My drafts in Blogger are piling up like mad and they're usually five to ten words long. 

Some people are talented in writing. And it's different from people who are skilled in writing. I used to be skilled. But I lost it. I'm just a plain old blogger na lang lol

I saw this guy at the train today. We kept throwing each other quick and discreet glances every time we get a chance. We both got off at the same station. I walked slowly so I could track him down and stuff but he went to an ATMachine so I was like, che puñetang buhay. It's not like I want to sleep with him I just want to try and talk to a stranger that's really cute and nice and spiced (lol okay that sucked) just to make this stupid day different from yesterday (lol such a sucky blog post). Okay. So I got off the station, rode a jeepney, lalalalalalala, and when the jeepney made a stop somewhere, the guy I was eyefucking with at the train got on! I noticed he almost gave me an acknowledging nod but he sort of stopped halfway so everything looked awkward. I tried to give him a smile but I don't know how because I've never interacted with strangers before.  
Charing. SO ANYWAY. It was hard to eyefuck in a jeepney. Before I got off I gave him a get-down-with-me-and-talk-for-fuck's-sake look but it's either he's too stupid to understand (which is a turn off) or I may be giving him a misleading look. I got off. And I'm alone as usual. :( 

Di na talaga. Nakaka-intimidate mashiyado. You have rich, model-pretty, and talented people around you. You wouldn't like me. 


HAHAHAHA H8DIS (///_-)

I wish I'd meet someone in real life. Puro na lang internet. Perfect nga wala namang chance LOLOLOLOLOLOL